Happy New Year + a week of 2011 everyone!

I know I'm late but who cares ~

Well this year I was blessed to have an unplanned get together on New Year's Eve with my 2 besties since Standard 1! It wasn't extravagant but just a simple chitchatting session at warung stall.. we gossiped, laughed .. OUT LOUD .. talk about stuff that we rarely share with anyone... a bit of walking down the memory lane.. well.. it's a longggg lane considering we've known each other since like forever!.. Diba is getting married this March, so most of the topics are marriage-related :p it was fun!

Hmmm... i guess 2010 was an eventful .. a bit emotional...  year for me.. but afterall my life was pretty normal just like any other girl-next-door around.. just for the fun of it, lets just list down the well-that's-normal stuff happened around last year shall we? --Not in any particular order--

** i finally quit my first job.. without any job lined up.. without my families & my friends knew about it.. and i almost broke

** i was totally unemployed for around 3 months.. starting after raya until 22nd november

** i joined the MSC job camp training program.. it was fun! i've made good friends there!

** resigned from the job camp when eventually a company recognised me & offering me the dream job i've always see myself in :)

** being a part of CPS Neoxers

** was thrown out of somewhere

** Baby Neo!

** the guy i had a crush on asked me out.. but he's married.. a relief to me by the way

** the 101010 reunion with my girls!

** my brother got home for 3 months

** someone asked me to date him & make me smile everyday.. thank you :)

i wonder what 2011 will bring to me... focuses will be on my career, family-time & hopefully i have a glimpse of whom my future hubby is *wink* :-)

Let Me Hear Your Vote!

Which one do u prefer?

Knowing a bit of everything

OR

Being very good at some things

?

VOTE!

Cutting Off The Unnecessaries...

cut off my hair short today! yeay! ^_^ The head felt so light in a flesh :) I went to the same salon as last time. It wasn't the same lady who did my hair cut previously but a practical student instead. I was a bit skeptical at first, but the result was pretty good. I give her a thumb up hehe ;p I chose to cut shorter since the weather is very much reasoning it but still kept the layered style, so i have to say goodbye to the 'v' shape. although i did asked her if she can manage to do it, but answered "nak bagi v shape tu saya tak pandai la kak" hahaa.. overall ... yup loving it!

ohhh i bumped into an old friend in Jasin & kms at the sunway pyramid... eyyy zatul u got thinner!!! uhuuuuu

OMG! So Hot!

The weather is almost killing me now.. why too hot? i was sweating through the day and night...

and i am so going to cut my hair short this weekend.. cannot tahan anymoreee

Not Happy :(

there are too many things i want to do..

yet too much time wasted on things i do not want to do..

Congrats!

BIGGG CONGRATULATION!

He finally reached the title he deserves to receive for he's been working really hard all this while...

I am proud that your hard work finally noticed and awarded...

I am so proud and admire u for having the only one thing i need the most at the moment... a goal and passion in life...

U reached your goal... I am still contemplating...

Where am i heading... am i ok to stay? am i happy to stay? will i have what i want if i stay? what actually that i wanted? do i still need to play the trial games? naaaaa life's getting complicated ... i'm still searching for the interestingly excitingly thrilled complicated deal... or is that i'm still not ready for that yet...

if only i have the answers...

My only answer is: i am not happy and trying to be more grateful for life...

Let's Customize

i wish i can have...

his words, knowledge, maturity and career..

his or his face and look..

damn, his height and figure!..

his love, care, patience and gentleness..

then i'll have my customised perfect man...from 4 'his'...

haaaa keep on dreaming!....

First pay slip :D

daaaaaa!!! the clerk handed over my pay slip this afternoon a.k.a my first ever Slip Gaji :D last month was solely training means i was paid to get trained on engine production huhuuu.. it supposedly ends last friday but as i'm not yet given any tasks, i 'volunteerily' requested to continue training on the machine line albeit it's not related to my job at all.. anyway, i didn't finished the training as scheduled because the first part which was the most crucial took longer than expected.. anddd i think i'm tired of training, huhhhh... i want responsibilities, i want tasks on my own... i'm tired of going to work doing nothing... looking like 'makan gaji buta' .. waiting for the clock to strike 530pm and be the first person to walk out of the office.. luckily, today my collegue is on leave so i used her pc hauling through the company's website.. read forums etc etc etc... i wonder when can i get my own pc huhhhh buhsan!

To add to that, my ooo-yeah-new-phone (bleghhhhh) gone hairwired again, it can't read or detect the memory card slot in, so i can't use the applications in there... although by any chance it reads the memory card, the applications still cannot run huhhhhhh geram! baru je anta install balik kat kedai semalam! grrrrrrrrr!! i don't think the fault is on the card, hguhhhh maybe i should ask them to change to a new phone ngeheee

ooo anyway, i'm already 24 now (haaaaa!!! too fast!) no one wishes me at the office which kinda sad really uhuks~~ and i wasn't felt very well on the day.. but thanks to u guys who wished me on my birthday! thanks a lot! (big hug :D) and biggest thanks to my sis and BIL for surprising me with 2 big slices of Chocolate Indulgence and Hazel Cheese cakes ... complete with candles blowing some more ^_^... heeee it was soo long time ago i blew a canle on my birthday.. arigato kuzaimass!!!

Honestly, i can't accept the fact that i am already 24 (hahaaa perasan budak lagik huh?) the biggest thing annoys me is 'marriage'... some of my circle friends are settling down soon.. at least getting engaged.. frankly, i can't see myself sharing life with someone else, i am enjoying the single life at the moment, i am happy being 'selfish', taking care of my own needs, no one else.. like no one business.. be friends with anyone even the guy who always park his car next to mine, guys in lines, at the offices regardless of status.. one of my training instructor asked the hard to answer question "bila nak kawen"... i don't have the answer really, just "not at the near future i suppose... tengokla 4, 5 tahun g ke" and he gave me the frown look... "ish lambat sgt tu, umor awak skrg da 24, perempuan kawen 25, 26 ok" huhhhhh blur... he got point i agree when thinking back at the 'age number', but what's important is 'the right guy at the right time'

Fire Alarm

we set off the fire alarm!!!! how i really miss that freakin annoying sound! well, yes i exaggerate a bit, the guest forgot to turn  off the gas in the kitchen, me and housemate were checking tickets online in my room when it was set off, first i was like "hmmmm bunyik ape nih?" hohhhhhhhh fire alarm! in our house! wahaaaaa panicked! then housemate asked me to call security, but i have no idea what the number was, then i went out the room, checking the guest (yes playing a very nice and caring tuan rumah) and the guest saw me muddling with my phone "who u trying to call?" "security, security!" "ohhh try this 02*******" , i dialed "te ne net.... te net net..... error error " shittttttt..... went out to see what the neighbors reactions, nothing... the guest finished stuff at kitchen while housemate still tried hard searching for the security number, again the guest "ok?" "no what i got te ne net blka bla bla", the guest looked again at the number "ohhhhhhh these numbers should be the other way round" "ohoooo ok2, will try again now......" "hello, security" "well hi hello, we accidentally set off the alarm, ** L***** Street" "ok will send someone over now", and me as usual, a very skema one, "ok sume kluar"... so there we were sitting outside waiting for the security guy, about 3 minutes later, our savior came! a very nice guy! well uncle actually, fuhhhhhhhhh!!! "very sorry!" "ohhh no problem, u were cooking don't u" " yeahh" and he did his job, checking the kitchen a bit... and the neighborhood was silence again......

other story, i already started packing my stuff, starting from files & books.... goshhhhhhhh i never like packing up!!! i always want to do it last minute huhhhhhhh, now i'm stuck with "should i bring this home? or should i just leave it? will i still need it? alaaaaa sayangnyer" hahhhhhhhh i'm suck at throwing away my stuff!

anyway, firot, i'm going back early next month

Sick Of Chocolate?

Last night i was really sick! My first thought it must be because of i tried the new Starbucks hot chocolate with nut or something.. i couldn't remember the name... we went to Starbucks after talk given by Dato' Pa, the Higher Education Minister yesterday aternoon at the Banladesh Centre... there was free luch that's why hehehh.. then we went to town, The Bodyshop and i grab another 4 bottles of body stuff.. then Starbucks and i was really excited to try that new stuff cause rozreally really recommended it.. and so i tasted it.. urghhhhhhh the chocolate was sooooo thick!!! you can even taste the bitterness of the cocoa...it was like 'drinking' chocolate from the chocolate fountain... but the cream with nuts scattered on it was really good... i couldn't finished mine and didn't feel at all to bring it home.. that night my head was really sick! and when i imagined the thing i drank that afternoon i as like yuksssssss!!!!! i was like feeling to throw up everything i put into my stomach erghhhhhh i never felt that way towards chocolate before.

Things You Enjoy In Your Life Right Now

  FIVE things you enjoy in your life right now and when you're done, tag 6 other people.

1. talk to my parents and family
   
2. talk to en. azlan
   
3. korean / japanese horror movies
   
4. fresh juice
   
5. shopping / e-shopping

aja~~

Am I In A Happy State Now?

FIVE things you enjoy in your life right now and when you're done, tag 6 other people.  was tagged by Firot.. well my life now is a bit upside down these few days... a bit of mental stress, a bit overslept, a bit 'tak cukup makan', and a bit of flashback old stories... hrmmm so i'll come back when i'm in a much more stable state...probably when the hol starts yeayyyy!!! 

Edit: Terrible homesick + i really miss wonderful times in school!!

Photogenic? No?

i went through my pictures in recent entries and i got to say that i'm starting to get 'sick' and bored with the same smile and expression on my face in every single pictures urghhhhh

An Old Friend Of Mine

so it's been a while since my last entry... and not too much things happened to me in the last 4 days.. hmm i text-chatting with my old buddy since primary school! such an excitement.. it all started when i texted all my old friends in primary school to ask them whether they are going to the School Canteen Day this Sunday or not.. so i just texted whoever i still get a hold of their numbers in my cellphone... and sadly, some of them were failed to get delivered.. probably they've already change to a new number since i last met some of them about 2 years ago.. and about this one friend of mine, Diba..we've been friend since we were 7 years old and we are in the same class for 6 years.. well i am in the 3rd batch of the school so you can imagine how small the school is as it just opened.. and because of that we had only one class for every student batch.. that's why we were so close and some of us still keep in touch with one another.. ok get back to Diba.. after Standard 6 where everyone moved to secondary school which also meant another school, we never met just keep in touch via phone.. not mobile phone.. but home phone so we just talked during schhol holiday until i was 14, i never heard anything from her.. until last week when i doubtedly text her number which i don't know how i get a hold of it but i definitely has kept it for a long time..and thank God it was she who replied...fuhhhh i'm afraid that i might send to a wrong number.... so we texted all night.. yeah i miss her.. she was one of my best friends afterall.. she already finish her study and now working as a kindergarten teacher..uhuuuu how cutee... and yeah she's my size and she told me she hasn't got taller since then hihihi.... then kindergarten teacher really suits her well.. and she promised to come this Sunday yeahhh how exciting!! and some of my friends from the school will come as well and hopefully i'll get the chance to meet some of my old teachers and other friends who used to be my classmates.....

last Saturday, as i mentioned before, my house landscape is still under renovation so there's one tree which they put 2 man-made rocks under it which are quite big and are just being painted with black colour which i think as a base, so i, non-thoughtfully (is there such word?? ) took my cat, Dekcik and stand her on the rock cause i thought it might look cute..hahahh.. and because of my silliness, all her feet got the black colour and my mom was really mad cause it might be poisoned and afraid she would lick it..furthermore, we were having a little ceremony that night to discuss about my sister's wedding so the floors might get dirty when she got into the house... so with guilty feeling all over me, i took her to the bathroom and hardly washed her feets as she's very afraid of water.. my sister lend me her hands thank God.. and after that i still felt sorry for her as her feet all get wet and she had to clean up herself.. The day after that, she went out in the morning (she loves to stay at the house next door) and i got worried if she get sick because of the paint... i kept looking for her all day and thank God she got back at about 7pm with perfect health .... and she's still OK until now.... fuhhhhhhhh promise won't be so stupid again..!!

Here are some pictures during the meeting last saturday night..

from left to right.. cousin-in-law, k.fatihah (cousin), mak (mom), k.ct (sister)... waiting for others to come

my uncle( my mom eldest brother), Pak Ngah, he was the 1st to arrive

me ^_^

there they are... the nyummy nyummy foods for the night! and my sister sweeping the floor

men area.... they are discussing... can barely see my father sitting in the middle with light blue clothe



women area.. well with 2 men...we were watching tv hahahh but of course with low volume



yeah there's lot of people coming because lots of people will take charge during the wedding....

** I am now addicted to Yahoo Games!

A Sleepless Night

i can't sleep last night.. i slept at about 5 am.. so i grabbed a notebook.. a very small one and started to draw anything came up on my mind at that time hahahh.. and i used my sister's pastel colour to colour them and believe me they were AWFUL!! haha.. and when i tired of it i just wrote and quote whatever i want in it spontaneously..what i was thinking and what happened in my life and here they are (really stupid ;p)

I am afraid there will be flood here. What will happen to the cats outside?? I want to sleep but at the same time i dont want to eventhough i feel sleepy.

The water tank above me had been dropping water since few days. Sometimes I feel like it is falling down and hit whoever on the stairs. Please not when there's somebody on the stairs!!

i've been to 3 wedding ceremonies last weekend. and i have to say that i hate a kenduri with music played as a background. it is really annoying as people are forced to scream to each other and the sound are really a pain in the a**!!!

**kenduri = some kind of ceremony

i really want to process all my photos during last year of my studies at shop but i did my calculation just now and it ended up that i need more than hundred ringgit to process them not included the albums yet... how come??

I want to shop loads of stuff now. I saw a really cool guess handbag at parkson last week. Should i just use my credit card to pay? but i want to keep the scholar money as much as i can so that i can have a BIG wedding party with my own money

i prefer to eat fried egg with soy sauce and rice rather than udang galah masak sambal!!! or ketam masak cili padi!!

**udang galah masak sambal = chilli cooked tiger prawn

**ketam masak cili padi = chilli cooked crab

I ONLY HAVE 1 RINGGIT in my purse!!

my friend love her boyfriend and my mom love my dad

i want to go to a luxury spa one day!

i went to bukit merah last week and i felt guilty because i have zip on my pants

**bukit merah = a waterpark i went last week

i eat loads of junkfoods when i am stress. i stayed all night during dateline. I drink coffee or nescafe beforehand.

My homeroom teacher warned me for not having a smiley face all the time and i hate her ever since. Sometimes people need to look ELEGANT rather than KERANG BUSUK

**kerang busuk = dont know how to translate it but it is a call for people who are always smiling with no reason

yeah i know this statement is silly... elegant??? what the *???

My English teacher adviced my friend to practice speaking English with me and i was proud of myself when hearing that i was credited by her yeay!!!

i just checked out the window if there's flood outside eventhough my house is on a some kind of high land

Why everyone's getting older? it's sad to see my parents getting and weaker. i just came across one of mu ustaz picture. He's very old now. I was sad to see it.

**ustaz = teacher

I am sick of watching a tv program showing poor people with loads of kids! Come on !! Family planning is vital!! The government should start give away free condoms rather than free needles to drug addicts!!

**well i just read an article saying "Recently in a report, the United Nation's International Narcotics Control Board said governments that provide addicts with clean needles and a safe place to shoot up may violate international law." http://www.drugaddiction.ca/Drug_addiction_Impact.htm ewwww hopefully my country has stopped doing this...

I love to eat but i cant cook. I am afraid of hot oil when frying foods. I will stay as far as i could from the oils while frying things.

My guru bahasa hates my handwriting but my friends.. well some.. say it is cool... he he he...

**guru bahasa = language teacher

i was called a "genius with a hoo-haa personality"...

**hoo-haa = happy go lucky

i hate my teeth. it needs braces definately.. and my nose too..but i love my body and my height..but a bit taller is better but now both are perfect

i got mad with Lim for not passing back my C++ coursework!!!!

I haven't work out for almost 4 years now!!

ok thats all... ewww that A LOT!! haha..funny what an 'owl' can think of all night of sleepless

Old Friends

I just got a friendster testimonial from nana, my old friend in jasin hmmm since 2001.. she's coming back this friday!! yeayy how exciting!! i really miss my old friends and after reading it, i had a chat with ima and we planned to have a reunion ..well at least i have something to do during holiday.. and my primary school is going to have a carnival this 5th august so i'm planning to go but haven't contact any friends yet haha... my phone's running out of credit right now..

Lots of people here.. ok 2 people to be exact in my house right now.. they are repairing and probably will replace to a new one; the water tank above my room's ceiling..it has been broken since last saturday (if i'm right) and the water kept dropping on the stairs and started to get smelly urghhh... and sometimes i felt like the ceiling is falling down and would hit whoever on the stairs heh.. they just finished emptied the tank ...

and last week lots of workers doing the landscape around my house.. its the preparation for the coming wedding ceremony... will upload some of the pic later..

New Resolution

Ok it's not wrong to have a new resolution eventhough it's not a new year right?? so starting now i'll try to write my blog in a proper English.. as some might notice that i used to use shortform too much in my writing which now i think not very mature heheh.. but yeah i know my English sucks! i use simple words regarding my poor vocabulary and sometimes i put wrong words in wrong places.. but anyway believe me.. i don't care hahahh.. and in some other times i prefer to use Bahasa as i can express myself better especially when talking about others... <if you know what i mean> and just too lazy to write in English..

now i really can't wait for my trip to Penang tomorrow yet i still haven't packing my stuff ughhh i hate that packing thingy except times when going back to Malaysia eheh.. ok PENANG here i come!!

trying to finish GNTM final tonight.. (if this streamyx thing is on my side which doesn't look like it right now)

nite~~

------------------------------------------- 30 minutes later -----------------------------------------------------

i couldn't make it... i mean finishing watching GNTM finale... and i don't bother to skip to the last part to find out who's the winner eventhough i really wanna know.. i'm at part 8 now out of 11 and just found out Hana is out... only Anni and Barbara left.. ughhhhh can't accept it if Anni won .. i like Hana!! but well Barbara should win instead of Anni....

i was forced to succumb to sleep now

end~

Forgiveness

well, lately i've been reading some of the featured blog entry on xanga and i came across an entry saying about forgiveness... tried to look up the entry again but failed to find it which i really hoped i could quoted it here.. its about if somebody makes something that we don't like just forgive him/her rather than keep the anger for too long.. and it really hit me at the exact time as i had something going on few days ago...while reading it i felt some kind of relief and my heart did not hurt so bad as it was before..

well anyway yesterday i got my exam result for this year... yeah finally after a long wait... and again God wants to help me with my feeling lately.. i was VERY surprise with the result.. it is really beyond my expectation which i really wish for it..hahahh.. i am very satisfy especially with my year project.. huh all the times spent on it was really worth it!! a week of dissertation writing which means a week of non-sleep (well i did sleep few hours) a week of nescafe and coffee every night.. a week of swollen and dark eyes... oh well i bet it was more than just a week.. right before my holiday to egypt... ahhhhh it was great.. the result.... i felt like writing email to gao to appreciate for the mark hahahh..well i got 73 for the project which i expect 65++ and my average year mark is 77.5 ioo yeah 1st class baby!! hahahh.. ooo yeah when i first look at the letter on the envelope it was stamped from Zurich and i was like... "what?? am i on Student Exchange Programme or something??" hahahhh silly!! but it would be really great and i would've been very excited if it was real hahahh.. about the result again.. i got 45 for machine hahahh i laughed when looking at it.. well what should i expect for being blank during the exam.. yeah it was my 1st time experiencing BLANK during exam.. as i always heard people saying that and yeah it really BAD! i was like know nothing about what should i write or how should i answer the Questions and whats the step to reach the final answer.. huhhh but thanks GOD i got m strength back .. and i have to thanks for the crazy exam schedule as i had the machine paper as the first paper then a two weeks gap and finally 4 papers in a row... i should say that the 2 weeks gap really helped me a lot!! i really took honey every morning and strive real hard for the rest of the papers urghhh and now i can be satisfied with all that ...

hmmm well enough about bragging around hahahh.. yesterday i watched The Apprentice.. yeah i can say that i'm the biggest fan of it erm generally a big fan of Real TV hahahh.. i watch The Firm as well .. but i don't have this good memory of remembering when the shows are on TV.. so i am kind of leave it to the remote control to do its work and accidentally switch on my favourite show heh... so apparently, i was surprise for this season (the one's showing in Malaysia now.. which i know definitely not the atest season) where they were divided into two groups of girls and boys... and i was like urghhhh the boys will always win and i'm definitely true.. so yesterday they've made a change to it which i was so glad.. and the loser really had a big lose! and a BIG failure!! they were not just lose to the other team , they didn't even reach the target... ok i'm too lazy to write long about it cause i'm about to catch up Manjalara now while eating kopok leko hahahaha (i remember it well Monday-Thursday 6.30pm) probably the only one... and yeah Trump fired 4 of them last night GREAT!!

daa~~

Survey About Friends

Go to your page and list the last twelve people who have commented you. If someone has commented twice, skip to the next new commenter. Skip bands too.

1. Fatin
2. nana
3. emer
4. zura
5. nawar
6. has
7. azza
8. rokhmah
9. mimi
10. nazer
11. ayu
12. fami

Q: Have you ever kissed 12?:
A: no NEVER ever

Q: What's the best memory you have of 9?
A: 2yrs in d same dorm with her... masing2 prangai gle2

Q: When's the next time you're gonna see 4?:
A: hmmm prob during dis holiday

Q: Is number one cool?
A: yeah in talking perspective huuhuhh...

Q: What was your first impression of number 7?
A: hmm 1st impression?? we 1st met almost 8yrs ago.. so cant remember

Q: How did you meet 3?:
A: in frenster... dont even know him n i don even reply his testi huhuhhhh gomen

Q: Is 10 your best friend?
A: he's my cousin not a very best freind

Q: Have you seen 6 running around like a maniac?
A: hmm dont think so... it was iema who ran like 'Pecho" at the party hahahhh

Q: Do you think 7 has a crush on you?
A: no way dude

Q: What is the last thing you did with 12?
A: moved my stuff into his house heheh...

Q: Have you ever been in 2's house?
A: no but hopefully can visit her sumtimes in japan kan nana???

Q: Would you ever kiss number 2?
A: hahahh.. no

Q: Have you ever slept in the same room as 5?:
A: yup she was my roomy for hmmm few weeks in kms and a week in egypt

Q: When's the next time you'll see 10?:
A: prob this august during my sis wedding.. if he's coming.. yeah i think he'll come

Q: Are you really close to 4?:
A: used to she was my roomate n classmate for 2 yrs in jasin.. jiran sblh lagi

Q: Have you ever kissed 8?
A: nope

Q: Have you ever been to the movies with 12?
A: no

Q: Have you ever gotten in trouble with 9:
A: hmmm penah ke mimi??? don think so

Q: When's the last time you saw 6?
A: before fly to uk 3 yrs ago

Q: Do you even know 9?
A: yeah

Q: Would you give number 11 a hug?
A: yup..

Q: Would you kiss number 12?
A: ewwww no... marah asmah hahahh

Q: Is number one your best friend?
A: we are close.. we eat together every day in aberdare

Q: Would you ever date number 5?
A: no date lol

The Meaning

What Siti Hajar Azizan Means

S is for Stylish I is for Impassioned T is for Tender I is for Important H is for Healthy A is for Active J is for Juicy A is for Adventurous R is for Remarkable A is for Adaptable Z is for Zippy I is for Ideal Z is for Zingy A is for Animated N is for Naughty

What Does Your Name Mean?